ecently whilst cleaning out the photos on my old phone I came across a little quote that said, what you do when you procrastinate, you should probably be doing for life. Which sounds nice in theory. But as many people can tell you, it’s all fun and games until it becomes an actual job. Take graphic design for example. As of late it’s become something I do when I know I should be writing, but either don’t have the energy, the time, or the will to write anything new. I try out new designs (either for the website or just experimentally) but it’s just for fun and it’s just for me. The idea of actually turning that into a career makes me nauseous to even think about. Unless I’m working for myself and under my terms. Writing is and has always been the only thing that I’m passionate enough about that I can say with all honesty that it never really feels like work. There are parts of it that start to feel like work, but even then I still love it and wouldn’t change it for the world. Writing was the thing that when I was in school after I’d finished all my work I would instantly move too, and now that it’s become my official job description I’ve had to find alternate means of procrastinating. Which is why I design.
One of the biggest problems I have with this quote though is that sometimes you need downtime from what you’re doing, I can’t be writing all the time. You need some kind of a break in which you do something completely different so your brain doesn’t melt and dribble out of your ears. Most writers will argue that what I should be doing in my downtime is reading, and sometimes I do. The problem of course is that I’m a rather picky reader and so if I don’t like something it’ll take me forever to finish. Case in point: it took me maybe two weeks to finish The Girl Who Played With Fire. I still have not finished (nor do I plan too) the final book in that trilogy.
I realize that to almost everyone I’m probably taking that quote a little too literally, but I do so to make a point. You should definitely do what you love, because as they say it will never feel like work when you do, but remember loving something isn’t really enough. A lot of my fellow art students have come to learn that there’s something rather draining, artistically speaking about being in school, and perhaps it’s the school environment itself or maybe it’s just doing what you’ve only been doing as a hobby, now 24/7 but it doesn’t work for everyone. Find something that you know you could do for the rest of your life and never get tired of it. For me, that’s writing. For you maybe that’s science or accounting. Figuring it out is the hardest part, but once you know… you’ll know.